This Saturday 0ct 06/07

Came home from work around 6.30 am, Cant remember the exact timing. Situation of my present life has left me with so much of occupation that i cant be aware of time which is flying so fast. I have some grey beard, other day Laura reminded me of my grey beard, its really strange , I am just about touch that golden line of Youth 30 soon, but looks far older in my appearance .

Though my charm of eyes and laughter remains the 16 years old boy but my body and hair reflects the ultimate sign of time.

My living room is like a court yard, our house is not that great but it has a sense of space which could be illusioning in first glance as garage but when one get used to sitting at this amazing sofa and looking at sun like today i am doing in this beautiful afternoon, he can feel at home. Martial and I am thinking about changing the place but out rotten economics and consummate life dont allow us to look for further alternatives.

Actually Kafkasque situation of Gregor Samsa can happen in our time and our life too, where we cant do much. Our jobs earnings are soo meagre that we think twice in going out, buying cloths and this fuckin expensive internship with Inter national Federation of Red Cross and Red Cresecent societies. This job requires pinstripe suit for United Nations General Assembly sessions . I dont get thing paid though attending in sessions are exciting and bit of passive exercise. Exciting in the sense that Its great gathering , all the nations top representatives make their presence in the historic GA hall where some of the passionate speeches of Nikita Khuscheve , Fidel Castro, Cheguera , Chavej, Reagan, Bush, Our own Bajpayee and Indira Gandhi has been delivered. It gives me a sense of biggerness where i feel my small existence as elevated to the ranks of head of states , chief of delegation. In other ways I always thought of getting all glorious opportunities . Its interesting to observe when i get it i already understood the futility of those glories which were my fantasies once i was a child . In my first blog I wrote about three viewers, but there is fourth viewer too, i call this observer, Buddha call it self , Hindu Rishis call Bhav of Karta, Infact all the great mystics have designed thousands of practices to watch this karta bhav.

When Socrates was poisoned, he realized this disconnect between his body and soul, he started watching how his legs are getting numb, his hands are getting numb gradually and after few hours his whole body was dead, I think by the the end of his last point of observation he realized that someone doesn't getting numb, that someone is alive and has constatntly has been watching the whole process of death .

This watcher has been my constant companion though i never watched that intensly but this watcher made me introspect my life, actions, thoughts aur sach toh yeh hai ki main apne pure jeevan ko vipassna bana dena chahta hoo, log kahente hai ki sanyas toh jeevan ke bahar hai main kahta hoon( Osho quote ) SANYAS toh isi jeevan main, joh jeevan ko jitna janega aur sense of watcher ko alive rakhega woh utna hi sanaystha ho jayega.........


Coming back to my UN General Assembly work, its passive because we all present in the GA halls are mascot of some thing going on in our offices, nations and all over the world .

Last two days were intense statement reading sessions on first ever formal High-Level Dialogue on issues of interreligious and intercultural understanding and cooperation.
It was oppotunate discussion on the subject due three reasons. First I find quite relevant since it was organized just after few days of 2nd October because UN has declared birthday day of Gandhi as World Non Violence day . Second point, its important that we are now considering religion as source of unity rather a major dividing factors in our human history. Actually there There was common sense of realization its politics which divides people not religion. after all religions were always source of unity and a vehicle to relate to some thing supreme and powerful , a bridge which relates our live to the higher cosmic realm.

Now Lets discuss with Red Cross Red Crescent movement Perspective........
High level dialoque was recognition of the fact that religion can play constructive role in reducing the conflict and building harmonious world community. I have fear that this dialoque might turn out another lip service because its success and implementation of various resolutions depends upon the degree of commitment shown by government in the future. I found there was lack of Community representatives, representatives who has grass root supports were missing the conference though there was significance presence of civil society in the conference. I would say it could been better, if our processes of including many groups have been more broader and inclusive in character. i am sure that all real community groups didnt get chance to know about the event and coming to New York is always expensive for grass root organization who has deeper linkage with community . For example representation from organization which may not have close association with Government , how we allow them to participate in the process. Off course there are issues of Sovereign Nation states which are basic unit of United Nations system, but world outside Nations state are not less powerful, if we consider the alliances and affiliations of common people .